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You are so articulate in your writing, Jones. So self aware for someone still so "young", an old soul. You carry innate wisdom this world needs to hear! Be gentle with yourself on your ever evolving journey. We are always learning and growing - especially through the pain. We learn the most in our darkness. It's as if our souls plummet us into the depths of ourselves so that we can climb our way back out and live to tell the story of how we grew, how we are always growing. You're doing amazing, my friend! Your own journey holds so much that can be shared with this world. Your healing, will heal others.

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P.s Now, at almost 30. I'm starting to see that we aren't meant to know. And will probably never have it "all figured out", I heard someone say once - "what we know, is that we know nothing". A humbling, yet beautiful truth.

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Woahh calling me articulate is ironic as I really don't know what to say to this 🥹

I appreciate you SO SO much for taking the time to write this down. Genuinely made my day ❤️

And you are absolutely right! Life is just a series of closing doors ;)

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It makes my day to have made your day!

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This is a topic I think about often. I've had my ups and downs since my teen years, now I'm somehow, strangely, in my mid-30s — I never thought I'd make it this far and tried not to a few times. Fumbling, we all let the years carry us on. Part of the journey is never knowing the whats, the whys, the hows, the whos. Life just happens — we fight against entropy trying to assign purpose and meaning.

After my husband died, I had an epiphany that there is no god, no great cosmic presence, we are born and then we die. How we spend our years in between is up to us. We can search endlessly for the universe to give us a divine sign or not.... To quote an old favorite "If nothing we do matters, all that matters is what we do."

Regarding an afterlife:

1. I grew up in a legit haunted house. I've seen and experienced things I can't explain other than there must be something else.

2. I'm afraid of this fact — I hope that death will be the end that we cease to exist....but the notion that I could be stuck here, lingering as a ghost is terrifying. Or being reborn into the same existence.

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Profound; I've enjoyed this greatly.

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Thanks a lot Mitch

I love your work too :D

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Why, thanks! I appreciate that. :-)

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Made me read ur whole post

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Thank you Brodie. Means a lot.

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I understand your emotional state when you wrote this out. I empathize with you.

It's hard I understand. But imagine all the possibilities you have infront of you. You are only 18. You have an exciting college life infront of you. Imagine all the exciting dates you can go on. Life is going to be so exciting.

So don't lose heart, use your pain as fuel. Write about, make more content and grow. Life has a lot more to offer.

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Thank you so much! You are right, I don't want to just mope around and wait for happiness to find me. I started going to the gym more often and being with people focused on bettering themselves have really helped. Thank you so much for addressing me personally. Sometimes all we need is to be listened to. Not just heard but actually listened to.

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I've always wanted to know what happens when we die too...

I do believe in the afterlife, (I feel things, things that are not there to other people)

I remember when I was meeting with a group of people that would get together and meditate. I remember how beautiful it felt, and how it was calm and peaceful...

I went to a spiritual church a while back, and the person who was speaking said there was a message from someone for me, I couldn't relate to everything but a lot of it made sense..

I've often wondered why people who say they talk to the spirit world don't ask them what happens to us once we're dead.?

Maybe they've been told not to share that part of it, maybe they have given clues to us about what awaits us and we have to solve it, like a giant jigsaw puzzle...

If that's what we're supposed to do, knowing my luck I'd be the only one who has a piece missing..🤷🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🧩🔮😂🪻💞💜✨️

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That's some interesting insight there. Thank you for reading. If I do ever find out what happens I'll let you know :D

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This life is test n once we die we will be held accountable for our living !

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Who will hold us accountable.?

Or is life just part of a journey of lessons and once we complete each one and understand what we needed to learn from it we can then go back to wherever we came from in the universe... nobody knows for sure what will happen, until we reach the end..

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That's a profound perspective. I understand your reasoning, but I have complete faith in spirituality. After years of atheism, where I was ignorant and narrow-minded, I've come to believe that, although many religious tales may be fabricated, the existence of a higher power is essential to me.

I hope I live a life that, in hindsight, doesn't feel daunting or filled with regret. The thought of being too afraid to return to this place is terrifying. My deepest condolences for your loss. Thanks you so much for sharing.

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I felt everything you wrote in this.

We don’t know where are we going but we keep on going to reach somewhere.

There are so many questions to be answered but we just keep questioning.

There are so many people to already care for but we keep on building more and more relationships which leads to a feeble end to the prior ones.

All I want to say is this is life. We keep on moving and keep on making mistakes. But at the end of the day, we die with everything left behind. And the after life is a life where we experience every obstacles of life again but we try to overcome them each and every time.

Brilliant post.

Keep writing keep going.✨

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Yea we cannot go easy into that good night. Thank you so much for appreciating this. It was pretty hard to talk about it, being freshly wounded but im so thankful for the support.

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I’m glad I ran into someone on here talking about death because a lot of ppl don’t want to talk about it !!! We all know we are going to die and nobody truly knows what happens next … how can this not be a topic ? Thanks for sharing ! 🩷

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Truee. We can never know.

Thank you for reading 😊

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